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It’s not possible to create the fabric of a new life, holding onto the wounds of an old one.

4/13/2019

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  • I love Monique.
Because she does exactly what the fuck she wants when she wants to do it. 

Everyone, I mean everyone, makes protestations that they do this, but 99% of the folks I know never do this.  They never prioritize what they want. 

For example, in order to make it in the industry, ‘stars” have to have their own star-making machine. That machine includes a team of people they employ year-round to ke
​ep them in the star-making machine. At the end of the day, these people get almost half of that star’s salary: There’s the manager, business manager, lawyer on retainer, publicist, personal trainer, nutritionist, stylist, hair and Make-up team all the time….for every event, sometimes for every TV appearance, for the red carpet, for set (otherwise, u might end up looking crae crae and not become a star), for the 6-12 months of promoting a film to travel the world and make appearances for which you are not getting paid.

That’s what’s required if you want to be a star. It’s the secret no one tells you and it’s real.  Now, Monique refused that. She was managed by her family, books her tours, sets her rate. And refused to go on tour for a year to promote a film that paid her indie scale and then work for free to promote it. She had a family to feed and bookings to attend. 

She knows what she deserves and demands it when she doesn’t get it. She’s one of the few actors I believe actually got an oscar for her talent alone (that’s rare, it’s usually about which film go the most press and biggest box office, it’s rarely about talent). And peep how everyone takes issue with demanding her worth. I know this bullshit well: whenever, I ask for what I’m worth, men and especially women go on and on about how selfish and self centered I am. You see: women aren’t supposed to know their worth, demand it and god forbid, put themselves first. But when you do, you don’t give a fuck what other people think of you, you wait for someone to show up and pay you what you’re worth.  Monique put herself and her agent first risking the industry’s wrath and dealt with the consequences. Because in the end, she works for herself, so she sets the terms. I particularly love her HBO solo show Behind Bars and Phat Girls. In both performances, she is central to her story and healing the humanity of women struggling with the same frailties she’s battled are central to her message. Behind Bars broke my heart and put it back together again. The vulnerability in Phat Girls broke me in ways that changed the fabric of my art.  That’s a message, Hollywood would never have told. But in working for herself, MAKING HER OWN WORK, she put Monique front and center. She put her message, her work, her lifetime of knowledge first without apology or excuses which is why I deeply identify with her and will all-out kick anyone in the teeth who takes issue with her.

This made me think of what defines the artists I’ve worked with who have finished their plays, started new ones over the last 20 years.

1. Sharon Washington’s gorgeous off broadway, Drama Desk nominated, Feeding the Dragon.

2. Lee Edward Colston II’s heart-wrenching, truth telling epic, The First Deep Breath

3. Michele Felice Hartley’s, United Solo play Life Encounters 2

4. Kareem M. Lucas’, ferocious sermon, Rated Black: An American Requiem

5. David Newer’s poignant, mid-life genius journey, L.A. United

6. Jillian Walker’s life affirming, poetic examination of race, class and love, Sarah’s Salt

7. Juan Francisco Villa’s, fierce, award-winning, Empanada for a Dream  where he goes where most writers fear to tread

8. Justine J. Hall, echoing Monique footsteps with her play The Iron Butterfly, a magical journey of discover the transformative power of radical vulnerability

9. Nilsa Reyna’s hilarious, Stroke Vagina chronicling a journey that most would have crumbled under: a first time, 30-something stroke survivor finding healing and power in chronicling how “she got over”

10. Cajardo Lindsey’s brave, take-no-prisoners feature, BlackFace making his debut as a feature film actor, writer, director.

What makes these folks different? 
Like Monique, they give zero fucks what people think and they aren’t afraid to take up space. They aren’t afraid to make themselves central to their story and their lives. They aren’t afraid to put “me” first. 

They Make No Excuses
They never give me a detailed list of why the work isn’t done. They just do it. I have no idea how they get so much done with families, full time jobs, teching plays, shooting TV shows and movies, but they do. They do the work that terrifies them without question, relentlessly even when they think they can’t, they do it anyway, no questions asked.

Doing the Work is the Way Through
They understand that doing the work they are paying me to guide them through is the way through. The work is the lesson. The work is the goal. The process of doing the work teaches you what you need to know, not just to finish this play, but for a lifetime. Doing the work teaches you what you’re capable of and where you’re resisting. They are not in denial about who they want to be.  They are never clueless or in denial about their personal fears and where they’re resisting. They don’t spend time complaining to others, talking, discussing the work they need to do for themselves with others. They take on the challenge of putting themselves first which is what the work I set out for them requires. It requires them prioritizing themselves, trusting that all the answers they need are within if they are brave enough to sort through it. They may not know everything, but they are not afraid of not knowing or doing the work to figure it out.

That’s what separates them. They also weren’t jaded by the writing process when they began working with me. They were all first time writers ready to work. 

So, here’s what I’ve learned in 20 years of teaching 1000’s of clients: women really have a hard time putting themselves first. Men are pretty much unapologetic about it.  It is only when women get over this that they succeed.

Now, men are direct when I work with them. If they can’t follow through, they try to negotiate an alternative where they still get what they need while doing the work I ask of them. But always, they remain: I am the center of what I want. That’s never compromised.

Women do some other “feminist denial bullshit” I’m going to hire a coach, then not do the work because I’m too busy with (insert itemized list of obligations they’ve taken on that have everything to do with others and very little to do them). Lesson: don't be a feminist, be a writer, be a goddess, put you first...do the work that makes you fierce, chase the dream that keeps you awake at night...talking about it...eh, not so much....

They are often in denial about the scenarios in their lives where they are accepting less. I know them immediately, they call themselves, queens, feminists, radical feminists while quitting on themselves in the same breath. It’s almost like claiming the title gives them permission to fall short of the goal. And the feminist torts they’ve created in response to the critique,

“You’re not doing the work because of your family, your job or being too busy. Ain’t nobody told you to sign on for all those obligations. You did that because you’re afraid of focusing on what you want.  You’re not doing the work because the work requires that you put yourself first and that’s something that terrifies you.

Instead, you’re taking a class, going on a yoga retreat, hiring a coach, taking on volunteer project, then not following through with the work so when you fail, you can say, well at least i tried, see I’m not good enough or able.

Women often set themselves up for failure because they are too afraid to go within and focus on themselves.
​This discovery is an “aha” moment for me. It’s an important one.  A client recently asked me:

What’s the difference between Therapy and Life Coaching?
Therapy is about going through your past to sort through stories that taught you lessons about life that are built on fear and are no longer serving you. Therapy is about finding out the emotional ways and reasons you get in your own way so you can dismantle them. Good therapists are doctors who know how to sort out your physical medical issues from your emotional ones and guide you through the healing. It’s a long term doctor/patient relationship.

Therapy requires a prescription and only a doctor can give you that. A good therapist does blood work to figure out if there are real physical ailments that are causing the emotional distress and there often are. They determine the source of the problem by treating the entire human being and then proscribe a round of treatment (from medicines, to talk therapy, to medical specialists)

Life Coaching is about work and accountability to your growth
Life Coaching is about already being clear about where your problems are and what you need to do to push through. Life coaching gives you a place to practice the lessons you learned in therapy in real time. Because in hiring a life coach, you’re taking on a relationship of accountability. You hired a coach to help you accomplish a goal. A coach lays out timeline of exercises, tasks, goals that you have to work through within the timeline. You are now accountable to that deliver that work to your coach. Life Coaching is where you get to put the lessons of therapy in action. 

They are two very distinct jobs…and it’s important to know the difference. I would wager, 99% of my clients have done some thorough investigative, therapeutic work before working with me or certainly during our process. 

It’s not possible to create the fabric of a new life, holding onto the wounds of an old one.
The only result will be a destructive resistance.

Monique is my way through. 
  • When she is sitting on that floor in Phat Girls bingeing for days taking a long hard, ugly look at herself
  • When she is in the social workers office in Precious confessing the horrors of who she has become
    • When she asks the young girl why she is in prison in Behind Bars and then asks her to sing only to learn she has the grace of the gods in her voice; (Monique makes a testimony and promise: that she  better not come back here another year and find that voice behind bars behind instead of out here using those gifts.

      I thought that’s who I want to be as a coach, teacher, mentor, actor, writer.  Like Monique, I’m all about taking my shit, my clients shit out of the trash can…looking at it…calling it shit and letting it go so we can build something new. ��It requires courage, sacrifice, hand work and a willingness to let go of all that you know, �so you can become the magic you were meant to be.�
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